Too Much

Ok so it's been a while since my last post and there is too much to recap in detail. But here's a quick summary of February: So volleyball continued to get better and I got my leg issue figured out. We went to provincials and got 4th which was sad, but still a huge improvement from last year. One highlight from the last month of volleyball is that I received the First team All-Star award, which was huge for me. I was very excited to recieve it and I am proud of myself for the accomplishments I've made so far. The end of Feb was reading week and I got to go home with Tim and he got to meet the rest of my family which was awesome. We surprised two of my sisters and that was so fun. The drive back was quite the adventure with snow storms and icy roads and closed roads, but we made it back to Abbotsford safe and sound :)

Now it is March and the semester is feeling like it's almost over which is crazy. It goes by so fast every time but I still get thrown off by how fast it goes. This week has been pretty hectic with missing classes on Mon because of getting stuck in the mountains. And having to catch up on that and I had a huge assignment that actually took all day on wed to complete that was due this morning. So Im glad to have that done. The men's volleyball nationals are here at CBC this year too and that started yesterday so the whole campus is just crazy. The guys played against MRU from calgary last night and they beat them in 5 sets. It was so crazy and fun especially because I have my own personal bone to pick with MRU so it was nice to see our guys beat them. It made my night for sure.

Today has been a little crazy. It started out with a crappy night because my roommate decided to have her whole team over for the night without telling me (big surprise there....!). They were noisy until about 3am and I am also sick so that did not help my attempt to get better. And also I had class early this morning so I couldn't even sleep in. Anyways, so I just figured ok it's one night, suck it up, it will be ok. My roommate also left this morning for about 8 days so I figured I could have a nap this afternoon or do whatever because I should have the house to myself. K so I had class this morning and it is intro to counselling. We do little practice type session things in class with groups of 3 and we just talk and practice our skills. So the topic was 'something that you are looking forward to or not looking forward to for this spring/summer once the semester is over'. So we started that and when it was my turn in my group to do the talking I just talked about my unsureness about the summer and as I talked I started to realise how much is on my mind for this. I have two options: 1. Stay in Abbotsford for the summer or 2. Go home to Calgary.

So the pros for #1 are: I get to be with Tim all summer, I like the weather here better, I will hopefuly find a job that I like more, I can live on my own, I can train with the team during the summer, I already live here so most of my stuff is here and i dont have to worry about getting home
The cons for #1 are: I might not be able to make as much money as I would in Calgary, I will have higher costs for living, I won't get to see my family much, I still have to find a job and place to live and its getting down to crunch time, paying for school might become more difficult
The pros for #2 are: I have a good paying job lined up with lots of hours, I can live at home and it costs less, I get to see my family, a job and place to live is lined up already
The cons for #2 are: I do not get to see Tim very much, I do not enjoy the job that much that I have lined up, the weather is not as great as in BC, I wont be living on my own (which I am getting used to now), I cant train with the team, I dont have a way home.

Anyways, so those are some of the things that are running around in my head right now and I do not know what to do. I feel as though my heart wants to stay in Abbotsford and thats what I truly want to do, but going home is easier because its figured out pretty much and I will probably make more money.

On to the next "fun" topic of the day: So I get home from class and I'm chillin and someone comes into my house (it was locked). So I go out and a guy on the bball team and his gf are here and I ask how they get a key and why they are here. Apparently my roommate who left for 8 days gave them her key and told them they could LIVE here while shes gone. And she never asked me or our other roommate. I am just really upset because first of all, I do not think its a good idea for them to both sleep here and also I was never asked. They are going to use electricity and hydro whatever and stupid things like toilet paper but its a big deal to me because I do not have the extra money to pay for them to live here. I am getting so sick of not being considered. It makes me feel like a stranger in my own place. Like I have to hide in my room and thats not fun or right.

K so ya thats whats on my mind.

A verse that comes to mind with all the future things on my mind is:

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." -Matthew 6:33-34a

I think I've used it before on a previous post but it's a good verse :)